1. An Old Friend

This song of saints, swings low
I cannot speak, can't let go
Living through death, life's unknown
My silence grows
My silence is not for you
My broken heart is not for you
Suffer silence, sickness grew
Each time, each fall, each death, chases you
My old friend
This song of saints, swings low
Living through death, life's unknown
My blindness grows
A pregnant sky, birth is still
The city is wild, drink your fill
Wilderness sounds, have you been killed

2. Anxiety Puke / Lovelessness

Wretched retching reeling
Foul sinking feeling
No love here, none at all
And my rapture breaks
Love came for me
My love will kill me
While I shudder and shrink, cowering
Laid under earth, so sickening
And my rapture breaks
Love came for me
Down we went, with spirit
Consuming sickness to feel it
A lovers death to canonize
Relish the flame, the piety
With such a violent clarity
Bruised and torn, lay down low
Stay with me, my lovelessness
Lovelessness
Cheers to love and needing
Cruel breeding, bleeding
Love so ruthless we clip its wings
The familiar walks on by
Reach a broken, stuttering high
Slow dancing or heavy spar
Uncovered your map of scars
Steal your fire, spread it out
She cried, to put it out
For many years, she cried
To dive in you, tear it out
Cheers to love, broken, bleeding
Cheers to love, moments fleeting

3. Last And First Things

Last and first things, true nature sings
Got it the first time, what does this time bring
Burn my wings off, dig myself a hole
Cut my hands off, for the things I stole
My memories lie
Last and first things and the truth they bring
Got truth the first time, then the lies begin
Bloody my nose, yellow my skin
Break all my bones for what could have been
The spring of regret
Searching shadows
My arms full, hair wet
Sink down an ocean's depth
Through eyes of coma beats a heart of light
Need something stronger to get me right
Last and first things

4. Blood Music

Take the music, take our blood
Take the life from our love
Take the poison and remain
None forgiven, chaos reigns
Music of blood, is becomes was
Fighting with this, so sick with this
Music of blood, is this enough
The single is done
It is covered, this secret
Undiscovered, my hostage
It is lost in the wreckage
All your life, search for it

5. Clozapine Dream

Voices are screaming
Ghosts are calling me
Did I tremble awake
Or am I just dreaming
Clozapine dream
There are hands on me
Tear through the static seas
I am not ready
For your doctor's dream
Clozapine dreaming
Live through my murder scene
Fuck your doctor's dream
Cry out emergency
Cover my face, tied in place
Paper work, a tight embrace
Plastic beds, lights flash red
I will not be found, I am homeward bound

6. Finally Asleep

Slip away through tired revenge
Falling through the moment
Before life and death both end
Some carved out dreaming
Lost in the weather
Cutting through the cold night
Sheets wrapped up so tight
Pray the dawn won't wake me, take me
Stabbed and sunk
Waking, soaked
Shut eyed, the night
Waiting for it