1. Facing Tomorrow

Silent cries echo in this peaceful place­
Eyes closed, nothing more to say­
In the finest crest of ebony­
A familiar name carved in ivory
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I will forever owe my first one­
For grabbing me, needing me, returning me­
Facing tomorrow
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We walked through halls of pain, holding close­
Earth Mother and this father, eartbound together­
We brought the memories home, holding close­
Earth Mother and this father, earthbound forever
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The earth now treasure my deprived­
Once soft and pale, these memories stain­
Underneath this stone a truth so cruel­
All so divine the scavenger awaits its prey
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This burden of grief pulling in me­
So much colder and with no relief­
Wil your deeds make the scale sway the right way­
The truth to it all revealed...
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This hopeless life I led, my own blood I let shed­
My body so weak and sore, waiting to be decomposed­
Overwhelmed by this tragedy­
Wrapped up in harmony­
Close your eyes, no more will to be­
As nature is delivering me
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This burden of grief pulling in me­
So much colder and with no relief­
Wil your deeds make the scale sway the right way­
The truth to it all revealed...
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Here in this garden of memories, I have searched for some clues to life­
Feedback from those resting so wise, I wish they could tell me, it's all a lie
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I believed in a life so delight, I'm so crestfallen, by the truth so cold­
After the storm there will be light, but right now, I don't want to arise­
I believed in a life so delight, I'm so crestfallen, by the truth so cold­
After the storm there will be light, but right now, I don't want to arise
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We walked through halls of pain, holding close­
Earth Mother and this father, eartbound together­
We brought the memories home, holding close­
Earth Mother and this father, earthbound forever...

2. Denial

A deathlike silence sweeping the land­
Murderer, a feeling of blame, feeding this sinister kiss­
A room filled with the smell of death and decay­
Anger wash over me as memories stir my mind
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My body is numb, agonized and blind­
These strange calls, from those who walked before their time
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Spinning through emotional fileds­
I turned the nails, that closed this crest of belief
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Once I surely tasted paradise­
But now I weep­
Will I ever see this paradise unveil­
I will be searching for all my years
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Strangely waiting among the shadow of the stones­
I now feel connected while in your garden­
Is there a king of vengeance who roams to punish me­
Inside it feels, like a battle between good and evil
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An internal storm that hates me­
And this torm always outlasts me
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I wish I could believe in angels and demons­
I wish I could believe...­
I wish I could believe in angels and demons­
I wish, we could meet again
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Welcome to my world of denial­
Welcome to the realm of the lost­
Come, feel the stillness of my garden­
Where my blood has soaked the ground
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Once I surely tasted paradise­
But now I weep­
Will I ever see this paradise unveil­
I will be searching for all my years
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I wish I could believe in angels and demons­
I wish I could believe...­
I wish I could believe in angels and demons­
I wish – we could meet again
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I will be searching for all my years

3. Flood River Blood

Our time was short­
But unbreakable bonds in a flood of blood­
This link to the past­
Is forever a totem in my life
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This place that we visit­
Our secret that we grooom and cherish­
This pain I don't want to forget­
Always a peace within me
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Through sleepless nights­
Coldhearted facts of life­
The meaning of it all so unfair­
This ride I did not forsee
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Flood River Blood­
No time to waste­
There was nobody there that could save you­
Nobody there to help me
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Flood River Blood­
With power to breathe life­
If there was a God he would have saved you­
But now I have lost my belief
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This token of love­
All I have within my heart will be remembered­
Your skin so cold­
So cold, a touch so hard to explain
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I have now found peace­
A conclusion to where we inherit from­
We can't rule over life­
Down into the earth we will follow
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Through sleepless nights­
Coldhearted facts of life­
The meaning of it all so unfair­
This ride I did not forsee
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Flood River Blood­
No time to waste­
There was nobody there that could save you­
Nobody there to help me
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Flood River Blood­
With power to breathe life­
If there was a God he would have saved you­
But now I have lost my belief
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There is nothing here that can take me lower­
Lower than this place I've already seen­
"Take pride in what's in your heart, take advantage of this trial"
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Through sleepless nights­
Coldhearted facts of life­
The meaning of it all so unfair­
This ride I did not forsee
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Flood River Blood­
No time to waste­
There was nobody there that could save you­
Nobody there to help me
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Flood River Blood­
With power to breathe life­
If there was a God he would have saved you­
But now I have lost my belief

4. Voyage Of Discovery

Do you know this pain?­
From the first sting in your heart – Forlorn...­
All the ideas in your head­
All the ideas in my head
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What can you do about it­
Try to hide behind the grace – All this noise...­
All these crazy images in your head­
All these crazy images in my head­
All the ideas in my head
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In blur distance, no future ahead­
My world crash into pieces­
It seeems like old memories­
From one life to another­
Lines spinning in my head­
Feelings that I can't remember­
What happened, where did they go­
These feelings that I can't remember
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Look ahead so you don't fall behind­
Thoughts keeps us up, give us hope­
Look ahead so you don't fall behind­
Thoughts keeps us up, give us hope­
It gives us hope
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Look ahead so you don't fall behind­
Thoughts keeps us up, give us hope­
Look ahead so you don't fall behind­
Thoughts keeps us up, give us hope
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Here on my weekly downtrip­
On a voyage of discovery – On display, like a freakshow­
While these crazy people are watching me­
While these crazy people are watching me
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As a deeper state of coma­
A presciption from an unknown hand­
Drifting into the drug­
Injected to secure my ideas­
Injected to secure my memories­
All these crazy images in my head
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Bloodlines left behind­
Bones buried, hidden by earth­
Life takes mysterious ways­
In a blink of an eye, all twisted around­
Burn my skin, pull out my nails­
It won't heal, invisible scars inside­
Bad luck, get your act together­
Leaving, destination unknown
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Look ahead so you don't fall behind­
Thoughts keeps us up, give us hope­
Look ahead so you don't fall behind­
Thoughts keeps us up, give us hope­
It gives us hope

5. In Silence With My Scars

I'm lost with fever­
Drifting into this psycho-sphere­
I wish the stars could tell me­
Is this it, my last breath...all alone
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I'm a master of denial­
Don't even try to convince me­
Am I conscious or lost­
Could this be my final day...here on earth
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I'm taking a leap of fate­
Never to look back, or loose control­
I'm beyond despair, in silence with my scars
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I'm falling – loosing control­
I'm falling – a desecrator
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I'm lost with fever­
This task called life I failed­
I hear an echo from the unknown­
I cannot exclude these cynical ideas
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I'm taking a leap of fate­
Never to look back, or loose control­
I'm beyond despair, in silence with my scars
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I'm falling – without control­
I'm falling – a desecrator
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I hear an echo from the past­
I cannot exclude these cynical ideas­
I'm heading into the unknown­
All my fears are now at peace...all alone
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I'm taking a leap of fate­
Never to look back, or loose control­
I'm beyond despair, in silence with my scars
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I'm falling – loosing control­
I'm falling – a desecrator
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I'm leaving this planet earth­
I'm leaving

6. My Fallen

In solitude, looking into thr flame that burns­
Alongside with your memory­
Desolation, a picture of my fallen star­
A broken branch in my familytree­
In my familytree
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I raise my head, now defying this obvious truth­
That night came and our heaven turned to Hell­
That night came and our heaven turned to Hell­
Our heaven turned to Hell
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Drowning hope, remembering all the pain­
Fear of loosing memories in the daily haze­
It was the time we should fill with laughter­
Of our newly arriving joy
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The siren grabs you with tragic hunger­
Flashing blue, cutting through the view­
A message of death, that no one could foresee­
Inside this hall, waiting for the fall, waiting for the fall...
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My fallen­
May not live to roam this earth­
My fallen­
Changed my life forever­
My fallen­
Left a mark inside so sore­
My fallen­
Only solitude within my core
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The siren grabs you with tragic hunger­
Flashing blue, cutting through the view­
A message of death, that no one could foresee­
Inside this hall, waiting for the fall, waiting for the fall
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How many dreams, I have chased on my road­
I don't feel for anything anymore­
All just fragments of disposable waste­
A cesspool of terror, displaying hate
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I have to face the day, still denying this obvious truth­
That night came and our heaven turned to Hell­
Our heaven turned to Hell...to Hell..
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My fallen­
May not live to roam this earth­
My fallen­
Changed my life forever­
My fallen­
Left a mark inside so sore­
My fallen­
Only solitude within my core
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The siren grabs you with tragic hunger­
Flashing blue, cutting through the view­
A message of death, that no one could foresee­
Inside this hall, waiting for the fall...the fall

7. Destroyer Of Bloodlines

It feels like I'm locked up in this dark room behind bars­
Where my mind is the cell, and this heartpiece of me went missing­
A shock that left me in the dark
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Can I allow myself to have these feelings­
Bringing me into temptation, pin down the reality­
I need to toss this blame I have in my head
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All my future years already planned­
There was made no room for mistakes­
Even if the Devil wants to lead me­
Into a deeper state of doubt
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Am I the destroyer of my bloodline­
Am I the destruction to my own life­
Am I the butcher of my future­
Am I the downfall of my heritage
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This flesh I can't replace, but our soul may reunite­
In a parallel world as travellers­
Still I sense, this presence visiting me­
A piece of me lost in a twirl of misery
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While a serpent, still tries to tell methat I failed­
Leaving me in a wasteland of desolation­
How could I let this life slip through my hands?
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All my future years already planned­
There was made no room for mistakes­
Even if the Devil wants to lead me­
Into a deeper state of doubt
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Am I the destroyer of my bloodline­
Am I the destruction to my own life­
Am I the butcher of my future­
I am – the downfall of my heritage
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I am drifting­
Into a deeper state of doubt
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I am – The destroyer of my bloodline

8. Wayward Soul

The earth has swallowed my pride­
There is no need to believe­
This God has left me anyway­
A wayward soul – At the edge of the world
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With a one way ticket – To the bottom deep­
With a one way ticket – To the bottom deep­
The deep!..Come follow...into the deep...
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The earth has swallowed my pride­
There is no need to believe­
This God has left me anyway­
A wayward soul­
At the edge of the world
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With a one way ticket – To the bottom deep­
With a one way ticket – To the bottom deep­
A Wayward soul, a wayward soul...
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This image of a vulture's head­
Casting a shadow resembling death­
Waiting, while he listens to your breath­
Its beak ready to pick up your flesh
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An image of a livid face­
Exposed over a stormy sky­
I try to reach, but it fades away­
Drifting on while I still search
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This trauma triggers my thoughts­
You are the one that I owe­
For the influence of my return­
The vague shape of better things to come
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At gunpoint I could shimmer­
What if life that really matters­
All these thoughts I put into form­
Will there be light on the other side?
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Time still tearing on me­
A downward spiral that bleeds
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Lost in the barren part of my mind­
These tears still bleed within­
In silence you speak to me­
Please wait for me at the edge of the world
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With a one way ticket – To the bottom deep­
With a one way ticket – To the bottom deep
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In silence you speak to me­
You speak to me­
Please, wait for me­
Please, wait for me­
At the edge of the world

9. The Bottom Deep

This hovering shadow I see­
It's touch of death surrounds me­
No glimmer of hope in a distant sight­
Memories of life­
On this vision the feed­
Leaving this world
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The end is complete­
Surely the bottom deep­
Visions dark as never seen­
Looking down on an empty shell­
Bones left for the earth to dissolve­
We have reached the end my friend
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This is the end­
Surely the last descend­
Those who enter can never leave­
As darkness swallows all light
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The end is complete­
Surely the bottom deep­
Visions dark as never seen­
Looking down on an empty shell­
Bones left for the earth to dissolve­
We have reached the end my friend
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We have reached the end­
We have reached the end­
We have reached the end­
This is the end