1. Crescendo

(intro)

2. Drowned

The ink flows gently from the pen
Stories of angels, tales of heavenly descent
Words drained from a bleeding heart
Tear-stained pages of lovers torn apart

Floating on stale air, I am drenched in your tears
Of Shakespearian beauty, of Tolkienesque spheres
In lands of unknown splendour I hide at night
My arms wrapped tightly around you, I drown in your eyes

In your eyes I slowly descend
Towards raven-black depths, a broken heart mend
Where the silver pen only left blood red stains
Asphyxiation in a deeper blue-ish shade

Floating on stale air, I am drenched in your tears
Of Shakespearian beauty, of Tolkienesque spheres
In lands of unknown splendour I hide at night
My arms wrapped tightly around you, I drown in your eyes

Floating on stale air, I am drenched in your tears
Of Shakespearian beauty, of Tolkienesque spheres
In lands of unknown splendour I hide at night
My arms wrapped tightly around you, I drown in your eyes

3. Meridian

"Pain is what you make it" – and I made it into a cross to bare
Happiness? I faked it, and made it into a mask to wear
Sorrow hides behind this grin
Anger has built within
And all images became distorted
A blur of "happy" memories aborted.
Until an empty shell remains
Everything stayed the same.

All I needed was a way to deny
All I craved for was a way to supply
The solution to my hunger for death
To die and to resurrect again.

My arms become too weary to hold on
The weight that I must carry is way too strong
So I endeavor the weight of the world on my back
Where can I find the strength to carry on?
My last day on earth has come to an end
And now that my time seems to be spend
I stare at the person that's dying within

"Our wounds will heal, our scar– remain,
Wear the marks with the memory of..
Pain is what you make it, so resurrect again"

Close your eyes, cry your tears
And when it's getting near you try to hide the years
That you turned away from what you used to be
(Can't you see) the walls I've built within are closing in.

My arms become too weary to hold on
The weight that I must carry is way too strong
So I endeavor the weight of the world on my back
Where can I find the strength to carry on?
My last day on earth has come to an end
And now that my time seems to be spend
I stare at the person that's dying within

Until I bleed no more, until I cry no more, until our walls cave in

Drown your tears to cry some more
Hide the scars to bleed some more
My last day on earth has come to an end
And I try to understand, I try to understand

4. The Bridge And The Ashes

You, you lead but no-one follows
A messiah without a God
Hero to none, craven to others
torn asunder by the fame you sought
Broken glass cannot be mended
When the pieces are trembled into dust
Burned bridges cannot cross rivers
That you've created in between us.

Will there be anyone left to speak your name
Or was your sacrifice all in vain
Will there be anyone left to break your fall
When your cloud dissolves

Hide behind your self-made walls
Watch them crumble, watch them fail
Desperately grasping the blackened match
As the flames consume the bridge to ash

You, you forgot to check for solid ground
Before the words spilled from your mouth
And now that your feet are sinking deep,
It's too late to regret the choices
To leap to distant shores,
To stand on familiar grounds
Left it all to achieve nothing
No respect for old friends profound.

Will there be anyone left to remember your name
When they clip your wings and you fall from fame
No one there to catch you, no one there to caress you, no one there...

Hide behind your self-made walls
Watch them crumble, watch them fail
Desperately grasping the blackened match
As the flames consume the bridge to ash

5. Thoughtograph

In amber times like these for my beloved memories
I made the draughts in my diary
To save them from slow decay
I couldn't put them into words
For my thoughtograph could not be seen between the lines

Our life is a growing story on its own
and so the word is made flesh
You can read, you can touch
And feel that I'm alive
Just picture my thoughtograph and never wonder again
Of what I feel for you, I feet for you

"You are the better half of me – how you move me in slow motion
with the long lost times of our history; all that is left is a thoughtograph"

I've lost my reason to bare my heart
Like an open book once more...I'm sorry...

I regret of having sorrow for you, now I cleanse my soul
And tear out the leaves I didn't write
To remove the loss of worth from my sight

If you could turn back, time would you do it all the same
Or is there something more to long for. something more to lose

Don't think twice, don't hesitate
Just walk away and don't look back

6. Within The Blink Of An Eye

The doubt within an eye-blink
Spun out through dream-filled night
The feeling and the tension
Preserved for all my life
I lay back, smile, and took at you
These presence ever clear
The final thought, the final move
It still remains with me...

I writhe and crawl, there's no escape
Although there never was
Serenity and sanctity
No longer soothe my heart
The bitter thoughts and dying soul
Still push this last attempt
Forever sleep, and endless guilt
Thus I repay the debt

And when you close your eyes tonight
In my caressing arms
It may just feel like it is real
The beating of your heart
I breathe once more and taste your scent
The dreams and thoughts you shed
Holding on to memories
Like gasping for my breath.

7. December

December, how long has it been
Since life took away your precious gift?
And left you cold and alone
To drift among the wandering souls
Until the year starts anew and the winter has gone

How could you know
That the love you bared for the sun
Could provoke the grief of fate

Jealousy make him turn cold
Now your only companionship is the pale light of his soul

"...Cure my loneliness and make me feel
The once so soothing warmth beneath the chill
And until that day my frozen tears shall fall
And my shattered heart lies buried underneath the snow..."

Until fate shows in compassion again

Little December, what can you do
But cry your tears that turn to snow

Awake December, a year has passed .
And you've got thirty-one days to find your beloved
Before your imprisonment starts again
But the only trace she found of the light he shines
Is a pale reflection of him

"...Cure my loneliness and make me feel
The once so soothing warmth beneath the chill
And until that day my frozen tears shall fall
And my shattered heart lies buried underneath the snow..."

As new-year's eve has come to slumber
And the time to search is over...
Another year has gone...
Just longing for the touch of the summer sun

8. The Ghosts Of Christmas Past

I see the snow pile up outside my window; the numbness enclosing me
The scents of cinnamon and pine transform; this room into an empty theatre
Where they play a grim comedy of another lonely Christmas
For an audience that could not be here tonight

They tell tales of immaculate conception, of three kings and the son of God.
But my ears have gone deaf to these words; I didn't see the star...
Who am I to say the words that I should have said.
When the ears were deaf for whom they were meant
'til these days of jolly have molten away
I sit accompanied by the ghosts of Christmas past

The curtains are torn back and all faces turn to the abandoned stage
I listen to the dialogue of words I couldn't express to you
Bound to stay in this room forever, I stare at the festive spirits staring back at
After tonight this room will contain no living soul... ever again

Maybe they'll tell my tale of immaculate expression
of fallen angels and a heaven-bound heart
And maybe their eyes will open and I'll be able to sleep tonight?
Who am I to say the words that I should have said
When the ears were deaf for whom they were meant
Now these days of jolly have molten away
I no longer sit here alone

I close my eyes in the company of the ghosts from a Christmas past

I turn away and sit down at the head of the table
The echo resonates from the barren walls
Where once was cheer and laughter, now only silence calls

"I see the snow pile up outside my window
I hear the ghosts crashing down the hall..."

9. Bitter Sweet

Let me escape from the noise – the tension around
The shouting next door, the crowded streets, the pale city lights
the restless nights – of blood, sweat and tears, my modern time fears
I need a release, I'm not begging you... please

Bittersweet, the conflict of natural instincts and temptations of greed
Bittersweet, the chance to escape with my hands bound, the chains around my feet

No sense trying to make any of purity and the mortal sin
There no need to battle without a reason to win
Already lost at first, the effect is just a plan take away what I never could give
You know damn well – I'm dying to live

I see myself in you, don't come too close
For sanity is a strange friend today
And give me, your silent scream of ecstasy
Bittersweet, drain the fluids of life
...Bittersweet...

I'm a spark fallen from the light collecting memories
To remember who I am, a fragment of glass
The colour of seduction, I've drawn your name a thousand times in red
Cross the line, cross the line of running in circles

Bittersweet, the taste in my mouth as I hear the gossip – all the things they say
Bittersweet, I could laugh my tears off, though I tear my laughs off

Love so blind – only yesterday remembers the time to be
Like a memory always somewhere in mind
Tells a story but is there something new to find
Hearts of stone... leave me alone

I see myself in you, don't come too close
For sanity is a strange friend today
And give me, your silent scream of ecstasy
Bittersweet, drain the fluids of life
...Bittersweet...

10. In Cimmerian Dreams

Closer to the edge toes curled, hands entwined
Staring into the vastness, the chance to change.
The world has passed us by in the streets.
Around the comer, sleeping between our sheets.
She feeds and grows on our desperation...she drives us to our knees.

Oh, sweet lady depression,
Cherish me and let me indulge in your forever sleep
Plunge into your emptiness,
Taste the scent of endless sorrow and dive six feet deep

The cold light of day has chased me away and left me bare and hiding.
In Cimmerian Dreams, in unbreakable sleep, in truth there is no denying

Closer to the vein, fingers tightened, razors entwined
Trailing to thin line as thoughts decline blood like water rushing by
Blackest of the black, palest of the pale
The blade edges, driven like a rusty nail

Oh, sweet lady depression,
Console me and let me indulge in your forever sleep
Plunge into your emptiness,
Taste the scent of endless sorrow and dive six feet deep

The cold light of day has chased me away and left me bare and hiding.
In Cimmerian Dreams, in unbreakable sleep, in truth there is no denying

11. Orion's Fall

I play a tensing melody
On the heartstrings that bind me
Until they snap, one by one
To fall free, to shine again
Can I ever feel alone, with a million thoughts to think of
With a million stars above

The clouds getting near
Shouldn't colour my mood
I feet how I accelerate
When all I want is to slow down
The pressure that's trying
To drive me in a corner
While my world is round

It's still there in the skies tonight
With a background so dark it shines more bright
Make a wish to continue and hope that someday it will shine with you
Orion's fall. When your light shines on light you won't shine at all

There's nothing more than now
And all I can forget
For the thrill of one blank thought
Gives me more with less
I speed on through an empty space – too short, before I hit the ground
Yet long enough to resist the impact.

Don't say never nor forever
It's such a long time to wait
Forget what could have been
And capture the moment
To fall free to shine again
With one black though to think of
With a million stare above

It's still there in the skies tonight
With a background so dark it shines more bright
Make a wish to continue and hope that someday it will shine with you
Orion's fall. When your light shines on light you won't shine at all

12. Requiem

(outro)