1. Falling Into Ataraxia

(intro)

2. Numb

Once I would think, "I choose my destiny,"
Shields against the pain, I began to rise
I swore nothing would hurt me anymore
Cold walls, smooth like gold
I began to grow

Behind these walls I faded
My fears held deep inside
But still the world remained outside
Though I had closed my eyes

Though nobody knows the cross I bear
And I cry with no tears
The darkness is my only guiding light
HIDE the scars that never show
Now nothing gets through me anymore
The feelings I denied
Distant dreams in my mind

Once I would think, "I can rule everything,"
I was such a fool hoping to feel no pain
I swore to the world
"Nothing will hurt me anymore."
Cold, vain like gold
I threw away my days

Behind the walls put up
The fears bestowed far away
But still the world remained there
Although I had closed my eyes
It was like dying

HIDE the scars so they won't show
The lies don't get to me anymore
The feelings I denied, now laid on my bed

When darkness was my only light
I longed to feel my pain
The pain that tells you you're alive

A feeling denied
This creature inside
I know what I am breeding
I'll be here to hold it with my lies

A fiend to be tamed
By sipping it's bane
I know on what I am feeding
I believe I'll show you through my eyes

Behind the walls I put up
The fears bestowed far away
But still the world remained there
Although I had closed my eyes

I'm the one who knows the wounds are there
Thought covered with this hate
The darkness is my only guiding light
HIDE the scars so they won't show
The lies don't get to me anymore
The feelings I denied
Now laid on my bed...
...laid on my bed

3. A Sudden Reawakening

In my night
There's a sudden clattering
A brand new voice
Coming up the stairs to find me
Wakes me and pours on me
Some daylight
Burning through my sleepy eyes
But warming
Warming up my frozen feelings

There is no rest
'cause now the call is loud
My reason flooded
By your face

Fire grows inside my
Dried neglected heart
Breaks my shell

Now the light
Throws some shades behind
Just a brush stroke of night
Still endless pit to fall without end
No lack of fear
In my endless nights
Like an illness you can't cut out
She made it end
And still I'm sad
I can't tell you why

There is no chance
My foresight disbanded
My reason fooled again

Shield me
Help me
You own me
The first thought at dawn
The last thought at night
You'll never
Let me drift away

Hold me
Save me
I plead you
Let me have some peace
Let me taste full love
Let me see
The closure of my void

4. Fragile Hopes

Walk
Now to reach your home
Will she wait for you?
Wait
'till the end of night
Until you bend down

All my mistakes
Every dream
Could all this be wrong?
I can't breathe now
As I need you
I can't live... no more

Victimize
Play your part
Could all this be right?
Can't you feel this
Strain that tears
The remains of us?

So many thorns tied
Around my white limbs
You'll never trust me

Empty dreams
Fragile hopes
See what we are all just living for
Climbing over
What we trust
Just a step to fall

Time after time
All the words, all your lies
Sound in my ears
Piercing me

Tied to a dream we should reach out
A new form to let us be
Clouding fear is all I perceive
I'm standing here but I sink

Losing the world I belong to
I can't stand or walk no more
Would you fly with me, or just flee
Fearing the thing inside of me

Don't you see this?
Won't you be with me?
No, don't tell me, that now all is fine
Will you let me crumble from the sky?

Fearing the things
Fearing what we can give

Can we live our life?
Can we live?
Living all without any hope

5. Soul Forgery

I. Tabula Rasa

Scream aloud
The way that I harmed you
Show me how you're feeling
Without me
And I lay down
Counting the tears
Licking only memories
I can't live

Please save for me
Now all the things
You didn't give
Please bury me
With all our dreams
Pathetic hopes

I gave my soul
You gave only coldness
I feel injured
I long to erase my feelings
Break the nerves in me
Kill my weakness
I won't need you
I'll Never crave your touch... anymore
I won't need you
No more turning back
It's too late
To heal these wounds

Forged sorrow
I don't believe your act
Dreams that grew behind you
Turned to stone
Help yourself with

So can't you see
This winding path
Entrapping me
Spite grows inside,
I feed myself
With unknown banes

II. Illusion For A New Mind

Now
That I'm a projection
I can hide
From the things I can't foresee
No dreams inside my head
And no grief for your lost love

'cause when you close your eyes
The world goes on to be
It's just you that cannot see

I go back in time
To when I didn't feel at all
Now I can deny
All the love you had from me
Healing all my wounds
With my woven pain
This time I'm dripping blood for real...

You lied to me
I know that look
Contemn me

The silence holds the storm

The silence comes
To fill the void
The scars are gone, are mended
And the cries
The shouting nights between us
Are now over
My control is my pride

III. Failure In Reinventing Myself

I cannot fight my rage
The treason burns under my skin
I cannot soothe the ache
The struggle grown inside of me
I want to taste your sorrow
The same you drove inside my life
I want to kill the pain
That you gave out

You try to tame me
And what you say
Is like a whip beating my face
I plead
But you are crazed
Who will demand
For your offence
I'll never trust someone else to try
I will, I'll have my vengeance

I can't lead my life to rest
She won't sing the words for me
Of tender lullabies
My dreams are so deranged

I cannot fight my rage
The treason burns below my skin
I want to kill the pain
That you gave out
Treason burns through my skin

6. And Then Nothing Remains

What I can recall
Is the pain
From those cold words
And all my dreams
Turned into grief
And you
You knew I'd rather die

Now, inside my dream
Your lips are still
Your eyes so kind
No spite behind
In death
You're lovely once again

Now speak to me
Tell me what is love?

The love you killed
Without a reason
You can't have
Forgotten this

Now feed my hate
Pour salt in my wounds

Now, there is no life
There is no hope, no reason

You were so distant
You gave me lies and sorrow
You walked away
Confirming all I've thought
You gave me coldness
I'd like you stiff and mealy
I want to have you cold, in glass
And exposed for me

I can't fulfill my dream
I'm lost inside my wish
I know who told you lies
Who darkened your vision
I can't obliterate
The struggle in my head
Through pains and penalties
He'll pay all his dues

7. He Devoured My Dreams

Hour is coming
In which
You'll hear the voice
You'll be judged
And for your sins
Condemned
I see the inner features
Behind the handsome light
She was mine...

Ancient Serpent
Who leads
The world astray
I'll stretch my hand
And strike
His flesh and bones

He's the liar
She's a vessel
He speaks through her
His the words
Her the mouth
My hell on earth

Where fire
Never shall be quenched
Where worms never die
I'll take you
Who stole my loving
I'll take you who lied

If your hands offended me
I'll cut away those evil things
If your eye offended me
I'll pluck it out
Yours the pain shall be

I am gonna read aloud
The words of prophecies
You are gonna hear the words
Because your time is near

Written on your flesh
The law shall be
You who steals the souls
And feeds on dreams

YOU SERPENT!
YOU SPREAD OF VIPERS!
YOU CANNOT ESCAPE
THE DAMNATION OF HELL!

8. The Reap

Now I can see
The fragments of your weak emotions
Not the darkest of passions
Like this hate that grows in me
I'll turn your life into an empty place
A beast will rise
A child of a frightening mind

I'll delve into
Your deepest soul
Reaping I will get to you
Nothing left to spare
When you've lost it all
Your certainties will be consumed

Spirals of whispers
Thundering my brain
And for this he shall crawl
The pain...

Now you remain
Hostile and don't listen to my wisdom
Multiplying your afflictions
Seven times for each of your sins
You can just die
The vengeance is nearly mine
God give me the strength
To be the reaper in this game

You'll fall into
The deepest hole
Digging I will drag you down
Nothing is left to spare
When you've lost it all
My sickness will become your home

Take you down
Will be my pleasure now
Just to know
I've come to ruin
And to swallow all
Got to start
From what you have and love
Sucking down
Your broken heart
Tearing down, tearing down your world
I only have to scythe your world
I only have to scythe your soul

I will raze your world

Burning all around
Your certainties will be consumed

9. The Masterplan

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10. Nemesis' End

Victim lies here
Naked and battered, just for me
Bound with bracelets, chains
And laced to fit my needs
You try to understand
The way that brought this end
I'm pleased to tell you
To taste your fear
MAIMING YOU

Praying me, this helpless beast
To spare it's life
Wicked thoughts, perverse, forlorn
I'm here alone
I've never been this close
To try and kill the cause
Of my damnation
And cut it's throat
KILLING THIS
HUNGRY BEAST

Some lost thoughts
Find their way
To the dome where
I hold my rage
Words of wrong and right
Of peace and fight
Like a beam
Trying to show the way
Behind the screen
Of my dream

In this place
I see that something's lost
And my plot
Is somehow like a ghost
Now I face the things I have done
Bring the blade
To taste my very flesh

Noooooooo!

11. Away

These tears that clung to me
Cannot wash the sadness
This void that fills my brain
Omen of close darkness
Let me be in a different place
Let me run away

So, you were there
My old nemesis
Lying on the ground
With only a few
Chances to live
In your eyes my reflection
Never seen before
Showing a face I didn't know

I can't go that way
There are shadows that crawl
Up to me
Where to run
Where to flee
There's nothing left for me

Sneering life mocking me
Now I've lost all my games
And self-esteem
In my heart
In my soul
There is nothing to seize this time
But pain

Run away
From those scary eyes
If you think you can
But if you turn back
The beast runs with you
Never stopping...

I can't go that way
There are shadows that crawl
Up to me
Where to run
Where to flee
There's nothing left for me

A lonely run from here
I flee through the night
Burying me
In my heart
In my soul
I can't forsake all this
Can't forsake all this

Leave your hate behind you
To conceal
The beast inside an
Empty place of darkness
You can't fight forever
I can't tear
An inner part of me

I'm falling down
I'm falling down... down

Leave no trace!

I'm falling DOWN